Is there such a thing as “a good sit”? Is a meditative session ever actually bad? There are times when I really feel into what I am doing (which is nothing, I’m meditating for fuck’s sake) and there are times when the outside seeps in and I am distracted or annoyed by….well, anything really. Cars, my legs which are usually killing me, someone farting, stress.
But this morning was a great sit. I went through my entire morning session almost without any sense of difficulty. Just sublime comfort and ease. As easy as slipping into bed and reading a book. It felt good since usually I get overwhelmed by everything. So, when I was done I tried to pinpoint what exactly made it so positive and so different from those less satisfying sits.
As always I try to avoid the standard “Zen” answers about seeing my own nature, my buddha-nature or my face before I was born (what the fuck does that mean anyway) and found that I had the same feeling of accomplishment and satisfaction as finishing a huge pile dishes or cutting the lawn. Happy that something was completed and somewhat tired from the work but not drained. It wasn’t easy or hard it just was.
In the end a good sit feels the same as a good shit. Some effort required but you never got stuck, you feel lighter afterwards and you have the urge to tell everyone about it but to them it is just shit. In the end you don’t know why it was good or bad – you just know that you did it and its time to flush. Fuck it! Tomorrow, I start again. No comparisons, just another shit.
Have a good weekend!