You can practice exactly as you are. Buddhist practice isn’t specifically about believing in supernatural beings or attaining miraculous states (but nor is it the opposite). It isn’t about sitting for hours on end at meditation retreats or banging your head against a wall learning Pali (although these aren’t necessarily bad things to do). It isn’t about finding the perfect teacher and the best sangha (but we could all use a little help from our friends). It isn’t about ancient temples or about Dharma punx. It isn’t about Buddha in a piece of toast…
Spiritual practice was presented by the Buddha in a manner that was (and continues to be) accessable to lay-persons, monastics and scholars alike. You needn’t have the resources of a lay-person, the lifestyle of a monastic or the intelligence of a scholar to practice. You just need to apply the teachings to your daily life and remain open to the ebb and flow that is your daily realization of the Dharma. Faults and fixations will always exist. Delusions and lies will never fade away. Love will never prove eternal. Everything will change.
Each person’s path will be different, difficult and mostly…fucking mundane. My life’s puzzle pieces are different from yours. Don’t pretend that it is an easy fit; realization doesn’t come without nurturing. You may find yourself slower to anger and calm or energetic and full of vigor. No magic necessary nor forbidden, just knowledge, wisdom and compassion manifested in a life that inspires rather than denigrates; gives rather than takes; produces rather than destroys. But don’t think about it. Just practice until it feels right. I don’t wear your shorts, why would you expect mine to fit you? I like my toast with tart jam. It doesn’t mean that my toast is better or worse than one coated with peanut butter or slathered with cosmology and butter.
If it takes a whole group of people to convince you that their practice is the “right” one to engage in then I would quietly and politely locate the closest exit. Allow yourself to choose and experiment. Nothing is flakier than a Buddhist that follows the crowd for the sole reason of blending in.
If you walk towards your practice with the understanding that you are small but present in a vast place and that you need to tend your garden and not your neighbor’s then you are, perhaps, in the right place for practice to bloom.